so this is it.

tomorrow senior year begins officially.

i cannot even begin to describe all of the emotions i am feeling right now.

like today, the picnic was a lot of fun (we missed you r4s, but i heard about the babysitting), but when i was driving home in the car i realized i'd rather have gone with kelly and katie and mommy and laura and austin.

i mean it has really hit me, that this year is going to go by so fast... and then i'll be gone forever.

so after dinner, well i was really tired, i think that was a big part of it, but i was giving mom a hug and burst into tears and was like "i'm not supposed to actually leave!" and then proceeded to cry for a good five minutes at least. i mean i've lived with mom for the past 17 years, and i must say during that time we've gotten quite close. i don't want to leave mommy. goodness we were talking about how we have to be detatched earlier today... but it's sooo hard!!! and austin and i have been through so much together, this is the first time he'll be without me, and i can't really remember being without him. and the babes are all still growing up, i'm going to miss it all. i can't imagine how you must be feeling mairead, though at least you're still really close.

but at the same time, i know i'm going, and i'm excited, it's this new stage in my life, and i am soooo thrilled to be a senior it is not even funny. i had way too much fun at orientation for the freshman this morning.

sigh.

anyways, yea...oceania??? we'll see how that goes...